Monthly Archives: July 2014

What does Good News Look Like

In order to have good news to tell, the good news of the Gospels has to be just that to you Good News.  If it’s not that then you are faking it until you make it.  Of course there are levels to this but when you have news you can’t help but tell then you have arrived at the point I am speaking too and experiencing.

I didn’t have that kind of Good News until my dad’s passing.  I had pieces of Good News,  but now I have something much different, I have a whole story.  I have arrived at a place of mostly constant very clear thinking, very easy emotions to live with.  That news is so good and telling how I got to that reality is why I want to practice leading other people through a similar freedom experience that I went through.

It could be looked at as trying to have one hammer for every nail, but then maybe not.  Everyone needs a much deeper dose of Identity and everyone needs to hear God’s voice more clearly.  I am finding many “Old Christians” need one or the other of those for the first time…..Obviously new ones too.

Something about our video

So a small part but yet a significant part of Leisha’s and my story was exposed this week. For sure it has been a surreal experience. We have had to re-live something that we are really way past and as a result questions have come to the forefront in my mind and here is one answer…

To do what I did to Leisha for so long, an underlying element was I didn’t see all of her. I didn’t see into her. I have seen this expressed several different ways in the psychological world. I was stuck in trying to see into me where I only saw a lot of pain that ended up in anger that expressed itself in how I treated her. Even though I really wasn’t angry AT HER, she bore the brunt of it.

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End of Sabbatical

(The below all occurred towards the middle of July 2014)

Well inside of me I am done with my sabbatical.  I began to sense this a couple of weeks ago.  Funny how, at least for me there was more like a sunrise in realizing this rather than a moment.  But now that the sun has fully risen I know it fully.  There is a side of me that is wishing our vaca to Anna Maria wasn’t scheduled as well as it not being so long, 2 weeks in a beach house on the beach, on the nice side of the island facing west but…  Scheduling that and the 2 weeks away came out of the same thought processes of taking a sabbatical, so I will complete the journey, as difficult as it is, I will do the hard work of crossing the finish line !!!! (har har)

Doing our video on my abuse to Leisha was a little rough because I was forced to think through all of that stuff again.  So I took a sabbatical at home to process my fathers death and was in a way asked to process my anger in a very visible way.  Surprisingly I trust what happened.

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