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Old Ghost

Sometimes you sit in a sermon and it makes life appear so easy, just turn your face to Jesus. And it really is that easy almost.

This weekend marks 6 years of going to church and in those 6 years Leisha and I have pushed so hard for personal transformation as individuals, as a couple, as a family. We have experienced so much, I know a little bit about that life style now, metanoia. I just don’t think you get to where you need to be without facing your Old Ghost. In fact Leisha is in the throws of discovering and facing some Old Ghost who have hidden themselves so well she only has an inkling they are really there…  Sometimes it’s so painful for her and you have to know surely painful for me to watch from a near, from a far.  I am trying to be as good to her through this as she has been to me, its difficult, she set the bar high.

I am convinced it takes both facings, Jesus and Old Ghost, one lifts up, takes you to a place you should be, the other takes you down to a place you need to go.  If you don’t go there you probably won’t be able to hear or see where Jesus was and especially what he wants to talk about … about those Old Ghost.

Old Ghost
Haunt these halls and cross my lonely thoughts
Show up in the funny way I talk
Speak to me in records that I bought
Screamin at me for all the things I lost

Old Ghost
Lingerin by my old stompin grounds
They built them all and tore the old house down
I can’t go back and I can’t go around
The devils that live on that side of town

I believe in things that I can’t see
In my blood and in my bones
These old Ghost they all belong to me
They hurt me and they heal me
They hide and they reveal me
Remind me what I will be when I’m gone

Old Ghost
Sometimes in the Dark they hold me close
Whisper things I wish I didn’t know
About my self and every heart I’ve

I believe in things I can’t see
In my blood and in my bones
These old Ghost they all belong to me
They hurt me and they heal me
They hide and they reveal me
Remind me what I will be when I’m gone

Divorce

Last year I moved my men’s small group from the Denton Square to my house 6 miles south.  A world apart into a seemingly perfect community called Lantana.  Very quickly I was surrounded by some guys who were divorced, one of them at the beginning of his, he was a wreck.

There are some other situations I was involved in that had to do with Divorce and then there was some conversations I was having with my Pastor on the same.  The whole of it caused me to find myself in deep contemplations about it and not only that remembering back into my own when I was 27.   I also found myself arguing with my pastor for hours upon hours although it was really only me representing his side of the argument.  I think you know what I mean…

You know the church both small c and big C have quite a few different stances on the issue, it is a plague in our society within the church and without, has been for as long as I can remember.  I found out during all of this as I began to focus on my small group, rethinking some future goals in regards to Lantana there is a quiet little stat laying out there in that there has been 12 divorces within my church from couples living in my perfect community in the last 8 years and more near divorces…  Then recently the count went up to 13 and then I found out a Lantana VCC couple is walking it out with 3 other couples (non lantana) who are nearing divorce.

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