Category Archives: Self Control

Old Ghost

Sometimes you sit in a sermon and it makes life appear so easy, just turn your face to Jesus. And it really is that easy almost.

This weekend marks 6 years of going to church and in those 6 years Leisha and I have pushed so hard for personal transformation as individuals, as a couple, as a family. We have experienced so much, I know a little bit about that life style now, metanoia. I just don’t think you get to where you need to be without facing your Old Ghost. In fact Leisha is in the throws of discovering and facing some Old Ghost who have hidden themselves so well she only has an inkling they are really there…  Sometimes it’s so painful for her and you have to know surely painful for me to watch from a near, from a far.  I am trying to be as good to her through this as she has been to me, its difficult, she set the bar high.

I am convinced it takes both facings, Jesus and Old Ghost, one lifts up, takes you to a place you should be, the other takes you down to a place you need to go.  If you don’t go there you probably won’t be able to hear or see where Jesus was and especially what he wants to talk about … about those Old Ghost.

Old Ghost
Haunt these halls and cross my lonely thoughts
Show up in the funny way I talk
Speak to me in records that I bought
Screamin at me for all the things I lost

Old Ghost
Lingerin by my old stompin grounds
They built them all and tore the old house down
I can’t go back and I can’t go around
The devils that live on that side of town

I believe in things that I can’t see
In my blood and in my bones
These old Ghost they all belong to me
They hurt me and they heal me
They hide and they reveal me
Remind me what I will be when I’m gone

Old Ghost
Sometimes in the Dark they hold me close
Whisper things I wish I didn’t know
About my self and every heart I’ve

I believe in things I can’t see
In my blood and in my bones
These old Ghost they all belong to me
They hurt me and they heal me
They hide and they reveal me
Remind me what I will be when I’m gone

Mountains of Theology

There is mountains of theology in the following.  Some of it someone else’s words some of it mine…
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He has let some of you be abused, he didn’t stop them.
He has let some of you abuse, he didn’t stop you.

There must be something that it’s sooooo valuable, that is worth sooooo much that it’s worth the price for us to be free, Even though what we do sometimes is evil. And that thing is Love….  He wants your love and you to love others from a point of free will… self-responsibility, self control from within that free will.

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Some thoughts on Self Control

One very interesting thing to think on through your years is Free Will.   How free am I.  In Gen 1 when God created Adam and Eve, he created  them in his own image.  This is Father talk.  (Claire is in my image, literally in many ways.)   He let them run Naked, he walked with them in the Garden, he gave them only 1 rule.  Don’t eat of the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.  He didn’t warn them about a talking snake, he didn’t warn them about where the snake would come from.  From what we can tell he only told them you will surely die.  He didn’t have to put the tree there, he could have controled them with only good and good choices, rather than bad and good…..

— Alan Smith

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