From Leisha’s personal journal date Feb 13, 1995
Revealed to me Sept 18, 2014

• Less than 1 year after we were married.
• Less than 1 year after her mother passed
• less than 4 months after our twins died in the hospital on her stomach.
• In business together for 1 year and 1 month.

It reads :
Tomorrow is our first Valentines day without mom.  Ron & I have no money & Sherry isn’t holding up her end of the bargain.  I thought we had made some changes when we talked on New Years Eve.  But tonight we are getting into another argument that makes no sense.  Ron’s anger intimidates me and that is not right or fair.

When he gets really angry about something trivial I know its because of how hard he is working and the hours he keeps.  I also know it is never resolved when I think it is.  The other shoe almost always drops.

When he is like this he thinks he does all the work.  There is no use trying to talk to him or reason with him.  It seems is that all he wants is for me to admit he is right.  Tonight I feel I am at my wits end.  I don’t know what to do.  If I get to the point where I am crying he gets angrier.